Alice's Paradise

Recently...

2010-10-14T08:52:00.002+08:00

Actually im not to put RECENTLY as the main title of this post...It happened yesterday, IM down n totally down cant do well in everything especially after my afternoon class. IM asking myself am I thinking too much, should I quit from the environment a while and let myself to have a fresh air to breathe with?? Numbers of question marks in my brain..after a dinner, a nap, all doesnt works= FAIL, luckily after nite class, a talk with some close friends, it works. Finally i could stay on it and luckily this morning im sending the msg to my friend to let my friend know im ok n increasing of faith and so on..so now im OK dy..

p/s: due to my frequent study n activities' load, i hope everyone can pray for me so that i could have a better condition to study for my tests and coming final exam, hope everything (stress, bad living condition~serious air pollution, assignments and so on) will away from me soon..:)

a wonderful week

2010-09-05T20:27:00.008+08:00

suppose to post it earlier but due to my laziness and excited

to have my sem's break at my hometown, so....From now, i have to train myself write all my story in english and really hope it works as i need to improve my english to better grade..

27/08/10

a wonderful + crazy week start on after class, seniors fetch me from the residential college for christian fellowship(cf) at a shophouse near to my campus.we usually stop at a restaurant

nearby to have our dinner before we start our worship. after 1 hour to 2 hours worship, we ha

d our supper at the restaurant at a residential college off-campus. it is a shop run by indian + muslim people and i always not sure what the waiter talking about..

28/08/10

start my day with a badminton practice aka match with seniors at badminton court in my uni's main campus. We play from 9am until almost 12am, maybe my guy's seniors

still can continue the match but they end it up due to our lovely super seniors call us to end it earlier so that we all could have energy to join the fellowship at one of the biggest prebyterian church in batu pahat. Oh ya, i join the prebyterian church

service as the service style not big different with methodist at

my hometown. That church really big and awesome, surprised when i entered the church compound. Activity of the night mostly conduct in english and we serve by lots of snack food such as mooncake, 'keropok', cake and so on. I think most of us enjoy the food than the show..hehe..After the fellowship, some of my seniors back to their place with the van while me and others use senior's car. At the time, we guide by younger sister of my senior to visit her church's compound.

29/08/10

had da bao as m

y breakfast at ayer hitam, the da bao not really big but it is enough to me..i start the church service at ayer hitam few weeks ago as im not really com

fortable with the church before, not sure what happen with me. maybe my brain got some problem or...hehe..after the church service we walk down to the shop to have our lunch before we use our "tata or mercedes" back to our hostel. After the lunch i have the chance to use it as my "driver" send his car to "hospital"nearby my uni's campus..felt nice with the surrounding as i take time to see the building and the surrounding nearby. After take bath, i received a call from my roommate that they will go to malacca and asking w

hether i want to join or not. I then took the chance to pay a visit to malacca. i like malacca mor

e than batu pahat..took 3 hrs plus to visit the jonker street-stadhuys and clock tower-a famosa and others history's building-outside of

baba and nyonya peranakan museum-dataran pahlawan mega mall-mahkota parade shopping centre.

30/08/10

attend class as usual..

31/08/10~national day

start our half or one day trip at McD near the carrefour before we took lu ya mee for our brunch, then visit at pantai minyak beku ( a small

beach i seen before)-shopping at carrefour-hav

e lunch + teabr

eak+ shopping again at BP mall. start our fellow

ship again at 8pm then end up our day b4 12am at a restaurant near to the hostel off-campus with our dinner + supper..

potato chips' stick at jonker street, malacca

view of minyak beku beach

Overall, i like my brothers and sisters in christ very much not because they take care of me and treat me very nice but i really like the atmosphere when i join you guys no matter to church or other activities. I really hope we can continue our relationship and the scene until I graduate..

uni life

2010-07-16T11:35:00.003+08:00

设抵达柔佛到今天，除了天气，水的供应之外，就是面对食物辛辣的问题。或许这就是本地大学的特色，不过我还是非常喜欢我的大学。高科技与古典的建筑物无论白天或夜晚的景色，对我来说它都很美。orientation week虽然没有机会好好的休息但它带给我们有个美好的回忆及对未来的大学生活进一步的认识。教授，讲师，学长，学姐都很亲切仿佛给于我一个家的味道。无论是parit raja,batu pahat or JB的建筑物大多都属于古老派或许这儿的商人都不善于美观的比赛，这也和家乡的老店或学院建筑物成正比。课业还在努力的应付，学习当中，要抛开半年没有拿起书本，为学业忙碌的“都市”生活即将开始了，希望自己能够撑住。服侍，团契生活希望会带给我在大学生涯的美好开始。:)

2010-03-24T02:49:00.002+08:00

难受到了极限，

我知道要坚强

我跌进了恶者圈套

情绪的波动

起起落落

迈向成功之路退后了

内心的挣扎如此难受

学习学习还是学习

2010-03-16T19:41:00.002+08:00

最近，总觉得时间短暂，

工作，服事，个人，

我到底做到了吗？

感觉上我活在花花世界，

麻木，必须，潇洒，

压力的成行往往成为我的绊脚石

我无法无法，

啊~~~~~

我需要氧气

小小Update..

2010-02-01T19:10:00.002+08:00

成为新鲜的草莓族也有两三个星期也是时候更新我堆积如山的灰尘。原来作为公司的一分子所承受的压力与疲惫是难以形容，每天拖着疲惫且难以形容的肥胖身形日复一日，夜复一夜，重复同样的时间，地点，动作。内向与外向不相上下的我反复必须克服重复与长时间某些事物提不起劲和粗心大意的我是个很大的学习功课，其次是我的英文水平有逐渐下降的趋势，而我必须在短时间内克服我所面对的难题。前几天，忽然有种冲动想要继续升学，谈何容易！又要的等等等，要是有钱应该就要直接报名赶上最快的课程。但没$当然是万万不能。有位长辈就告诉我他的经验，要是对某些事开始有兴趣那么直然而然就会做得好。真希望我能专注些别再粗心大意了。工作，灵命的成长可不是一朝一夕的事，只要有恒心一定可以做到。。+ U..

三部曲

2010-01-14T00:16:00.002+08:00

在这场充满刺激，每天和时间赛跑的花花世界里，我生活的三部曲竟然是吃，睡，上网，那么我这只大懒虫跟猪有分别吗？！当然有啦至少它们是提供我们食物，而我呢？在世上的小小人物...每天麻木的忙到连部落格都很少上了,堆积如上的'梅'一时间难以消化,不'生病'才怪..身为工作者的朋友们或许非常羡慕我如此的生活但我只想说一句其实这种生活才恐怖因为生活完全没了寄托,身为学生的朋友也不必羡慕要是成天向往如此的生活那么我们进修的时间完全没了,更别说是灵修..有时纳闷,什么时候才能有我这位社会新鲜人立足之地?!进修谈何容易,进入大学的窄门虽比进入永恒的窄门难但我却没有任何的优先权.我的优先权唯有完全的交托及耐心地等候安排.大家都说还没工作就好好休息,享受人生但是要怎样?对每件事都提不起劲...haiz..希望我的心情能像雨后的彩虹那么美丽..:)

杂记

2010-01-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

我毕业了，我终于毕业了。

三年的读书生涯就这样过了，

仿佛好像昨天的事

光阴似箭

酸甜苦辣

所谓吃得苦中苦方为人上人

毕业了意味着事业/失业的开始

我该怎样为我的人生打算呢？

恍恍惚惚地度过？

怎么办？

我不敢想象

我想只能交托于主。。。

03.12.2009

2009-12-03T16:23:00.002+08:00

本学期的霸王~final year project终于于今早完美的结束了顿时让松了一口气.神奇的是我们竟然没被panel"shoot"或许我们所做的presentation得到panel的认同.短短的十几分钟的presentation犹如天堂和地狱,我们是属于天堂的一派或许神的工作在当中运行,三位panel就好象天使般的慈祥.天堂的感觉真的很好完全就像个检讨会或许说是三位讲师的讨论会好听的多.panel的终结是我们这组比起前面两组来的好原因是我们有做application,用excel啦.当其中一位panel说可以出去时我顿时愣住了,啊你们只问几题题目就"放"我们了..早上的presentation五组中就有两组进了天堂,另三组进了地狱.下午的其他coursemates就不知有没我们这么幸运.现在开始就必须专注于大考了希望神继续眷顾我好让我也能顺利的通过考试,压力难免会有的希望重担暂时能扯在一边..:)各位+ U了..

An interview

2009-12-01T16:40:00.008+08:00

1st of all i ned thank to my lovely GOD, dearest parent and my fellow friends and lecturer who do suppost and encourage me to go to an interview organise by Schlumberger. Even im not selected to enter the 3rd or final stage but i am happy and unbelievable i manage to enter the 2nd stage..Actually im refuse to go the interview as most of my coursemates who do send their name that day told me yest nite they wont go..few minutes b4 9am i decided to go to the interview and take it a chance to learn and experience how a big, well known and foreign company to take or hire a student to enter the company..Almost all of the batchmates bring the calculator juz me and i guess im the only person who do all the calculation without calculator..the 1st stage was all the student need sit for the a test call technical test which consists of 7 parts(i guess), english, machanics physics, maths, physics power (all electic n electrical things), general ques and also drawings..(maybe miss one of the part not sure dy bz wat i can remember is all the ques ask more bout physics more than what i study in civil..for those who study in mechanical and electrical junior u all have a big chance to enter tat company actually..As a careless student, I didnt read the instructions carefully that we are NOT allow to write anything on its question paper, what to do then??i then ned to use my examgrade to erase all the calculation i made on the paper..actually i also ned to be proud n surprise bz without any calculator i still manage to enter the 2nd stage which is call discussion..they put u in a group with 5 and a task will be given. all of us ned to write down our NAME and GROUP NUMBER to be qualified to go this stage b4 we state down our opinion and solution when we still at the individual discussion. three of 25 student disqualified b4 the group discussion, after that we are given 10 or 20 minutes to do it b4 10 minute to do presentation on stage.walao, 3 of the "experience" worker shoot us nonstop. I totally afraid to answer question asking by a guy who stay at US for more than 5 or 10 years because i dont understand what he talking about, see how poor the english standard of me..Alice, u write down the XXX when group discussion why u're not a project manager..aduh??this also can be a ques..is it ned to check and make sure the time are accurate..%^&*()..i juz ned ur answer yes o no..Alice, could you please state some of the weakness of ur manager?by then i answer from this few seconds, i didnt c he gt any weakness..above are sum of the ques i remembered when i "shoot" by 3 of the worker out of 5 of them..finally, i disqualified to send in the CV and the entrance to the final stage..nvm i said to myself..at least i got chance to experience it..hope my coursemate, esma can enter the schlumberger..GUD luck to those who been selected to enter the final stage..+ u..:)
*lot of error could found in my blog, no wonder i cant enter the final stage..:(

an outing

2009-12-01T16:24:00.004+08:00

on 28/11 2 of my coursemates and I decide went to town to watch the movie which is twilight saga:the moon..It is a chance for me to give myself a rest, recently I totally feel stress with my course work and so on..the energy that i have i think is not enough 4 me to win the game again to achieve the goal..I love twilight series maybe because of Edward and Bella but after the moon, I have add on an admirer who is Jacob. Jacob dy a big chance in his character as well as his look from twilight to the moon. he seen to be more "stronger" is a gud guy to pretect his "partner"..wahahaha..the 2nd story end up with Edward ask permission to marry Bella make me crazy and cant wait 4 d 3rd movie..Overall, twilight saga:the moon more on relationship or love between Jacob, Edward and Bella..Bella will become a member of vampire soon and marry wif Edward...huhu..cant wait 4 it..After the movie, 3 of us go n have our brunch(breakfast +lunch)+ tea break at KFC downstairs, quite save the budget rite??hehe..crazy wif the movie let us 4gt bout to take meal b4 the movie..after that we bought some goods from parkson to indians street b4 we end up our journey to poly..on the way back to poly, saw an accident somewhere near with the matang's technical skul..Driving safely very important for us and it not only protect us but also other road users and their family..
p/s:the pic will add on when im bck to hometown due to my laptop attack by the virus from my lect:(

迷失

2009-11-23T11:41:00.003+08:00

疲倦的我仿佛对读书的生涯完全失去了自由

更加对学业提不起劲

只剩大约一个星期多的时间准备

presentation of final sem's project，final exam

身上的重担简直超越了极限

熊猫眼也越来越严重

视力问题的出现给了我一个警告

警戒我必须拥有足够的休息时间

一天超过6小时的睡眠对我来说是个奢侈

不知自己能不能撑到考试完毕

放弃曾在我的脑海里出现了无数次

噩梦破坏我的睡眠品质

人往往是那么脆弱

重担一来往往就迷失了方向感

生活宛如迷宫

唯有坚持到底才能成功的抵达终点

2009-11-21T06:36:00.004+08:00

2009年11月16日
由于最近忙碌于final project,学院的network也不怎么的好所以就拖到今天才能够update部落格.16日是本姑娘的大日子也是妈妈的母难日这天也是上课的日子所以就没有庆祝虽然有点失望不过还是很开心因为得到好多的祝福无论是师长或是朋友们..也得谢谢facebook,它不只帮我和旧同学及朋友再次联络也在那里得到最多大家的祝福,sms就是第二个管道..呵呵..还有要谢谢贤国学弟，他送给我一个e-card through我的fb..其实也没什么开心因为我得应付1个test,1个quiz及1个interview,读了整个晚上都不知自己在温习什么好像什么都没读到.16日一大清早就得起床上课,到了dewan kuliah不久我的其中一位coursemate就叫了我一下接着他们就开始为我唱生日歌虽然没有生日派对但这也是我最后一次在poly度过我21岁生日.接下来的惊喜就更好了,我的PA每次都没给我们开书的机会竟然被班上的coursemate哄下就答应了..对于我这个没温书没进全责是个天大的惊喜..yeahuu好几了..接下来就是english的interview,其实我完全是没有准备硬着头皮的但最终还是被阿舍看穿了,他说我的content不是很好,当然咯周末只有facebook+ing,阿舍千叮万嘱要我们准备,我就是这么的倔强,不听老人言吃亏在眼前..

2009年11月19日
这天其实没什么特别但它是我在poly读书的特别日子,怎么特别呢?就是我拿Anugerah Ketua Jabatan(AKJ)的日子.非常有幸能在最后一个学期从KJ手上得到这个奖虽然不是每个学期都有我的份但还是感谢神让我在上个学期的努力下得到好成绩.虽然只是个小小的颁奖礼但有好过没有咯..当天也是我逼与无奈要穿上令我不适的baju kurung并也是大家期待看我穿baju kurung的样子..咳咳..阿舍还问Y u so sudden wear baju kurung..是咯他的interview都不见得我穿而是穿长袖衣而已..when hv BBQ?!$$都没看到怎样庆祝呢？话说我们88年出生的龙之龙女都非常的不幸，每次有什么好事都没我们的份就连我的AKJ的奖励金也是下学期才有望..我都毕业了你们才给.. @$%^&*@#$%^&*就连AKJ后的jamuan也跟我们作对，我们dept可是有还钱的哦学生跟阿舍的分量差距这么大..怪不得大家每次都懒的要去哪里吃而选择去cafeteria吃..而且托baju kurung的福我走了13个地方...poly这么大吗?!当然不是而是同样的一个地方要走多次以上而我的department最少5次以上..为了什么呢?就是本学期的霸王咯~final sem project..但最后还是把问题解决了一半感谢神,虽然不是最完美的work但还是完美中的完美,最终放下我心中的重担..回到宿舍时简直就是好像身体跟骨头脱节了..累垮了..连续几晚为了你没好好的休息希望来临的presentation能好好的准备就算被panel shoot 也是输得心服口服..加油:)
p/s: the photo will upload some other time as i still haven't get it from my lecturer..

LOVE "U"

2009-10-22T16:21:00.005+08:00

不知从何几时对你提不起劲
一大堆的理论根本派不上用场
一大堆的罗马数字似乎生疏许多
曾经想放弃你
但最终还是找回了你
也找回了对你的自信
我心爱的科目～theory of structure
yeah...
不要问我为何会爱上你..
但至少曾经付出过对你的认识
真希望能延续我对你的热诚
未来的路靠你了..keke
~an A的感觉回来了:)
加油加油..

醒觉?!

2009-10-21T16:01:00.003+08:00

自从campus启用WIFI之后感觉上整个人懒散了许多，
功课时常没做完,
有时甚至开夜车只为了要赶功课,
能抄就抄,对学业根本就提不起劲.
只是星期日控制自己不可上网因为70多页的理论根本
就还没读完不过感谢主崇拜完后好像记忆及读书的速
度加快了许多.虽然考试不怎么理想但至少我做到了.
昨天更加离谱,离谱到将近晚上十点才把功课的一部分
做完,根本就没花时间去研究功课,心里只想反正那位
讲师很容易商量只要明天问他怎样做这样我就可以延
期交上功课.喝完鸡精后根本整个下午都在痴睡晚上
就几乎都呆在facebook,当然今早的quiz是在没有
专心温书所以根本就别提到底好不好.怎办?我的
pointer这次肯定是很糟糕,不想读书了吗?我想从
今天开始我得控制自己必须要有纪律点别老是沉迷
于网页..facebook再此要跟你说声bye bye.
暂时跟你告别还是对我个人有很大的帮助,或许我
得花更多时间去亲近那位又真又活并时常眷顾我的神.
只剩下大约一个月的时间来准备我的final exam和
final project了所以只要纪律点AKJ总不会擦肩
而过..

17.10.2009

2009-10-17T13:33:00.003+08:00

好一个无聊的周末，炎热的天气，我该做什么呢？温习下星期的考试？上网？无所事事？该怎办，太无聊了？这学期的课业多以理论为主，讨厌沉闷理论的我该怎办？我必须提起一百万个如龙般的精神来应付这场仗..祝我龙马精神..哈哈当然是求主保佑实际点:)祝印度朋友们屠腰节快乐..happy deepavali

念

2009-10-13T10:58:00.001+08:00

突然好像拥有你
袮到底在何方呢？
遥远的一方
是否想念着我呢？
为着生活苦恼
或许我无形中成为袮的负累
灿烂的微笑
带给你一线希望，盼望，喜悦
愁苦的苦瓜
你苦了吗？
幸苦的你为我打点一切
苦了你
累坏了吗？
我真的累了，苦了，愁了
你在哪里？
小鸟的依人你是否思念
期盼着灿烂的美好明天呢？
寂寞的滋味
一个人擦泪
一个人好累
怎样的我
怎样让我更想念
想念的季节几时来临呢？
怎样的眼
怎样的泪
也许袮会难过

草于13/10/09 12:21am

近来

2009-10-13T10:36:00.006+08:00

雨天，阴天，晴天,
冷血，热血
阴天或许更加适合，
凉凉的风，
在酷热的赤道出了一线生机.
或许阴天及雨天,
并没有代表着阳光那份的恨怒,
又或许它暖活了心底里的那份热诚,
小小的生机就这样，
被洪亮的雷公公和豆大的雨小姐给打败了,

打败了彻底的打败了
就这样它把伤感给带走了？
是否彻底？
豆大的雨点是否带来了曙光？
随着彩虹生命出现了奇迹.
黑夜和白昼只是一线之差
就这么过了意义的一天？
明天是今天的期望，
历史就这样开始也就这样的结束，
辉煌，灿烂，英雄
时间是否可停留？
愉快与苦总是擦肩而过
开心的时光总是不知不觉消失在眼前
阴天的日子总是那么漫长，
雨天的日子虽是短暂，
但无形间带走了悲伤，忧愁
晴天的日子总是那么的灿烂，
虽不常有当只在乎曾经拥有。

草于13/10/09 12:04am

Trip to sematan

2009-10-04T16:25:00.009+08:00

这篇记载该如何开始与结束呢？话说想当年...喂..哪来的想当年才昨天发生的事...
其实我对这次的trip抱着开心又期待的心情虽然有一些些的小插曲不过我们还是成功的去游玩了.在一个风和日丽星期六早晨就浩浩荡荡的出发到马当一带购物(怎么有小学生作文的感觉),首先我被'委任'为财政的我(不过也不错因为有机会hold住$然后进行买购物还钱的引:)就负责还$及吸收一些新知识,在我印象中我还不曾购买过BBQ的用具啦等等的...有钱的感觉真的很爽不过就苦了阿舍因为荷包里破了个大洞:(以后有机会肯定要一起最少yam tea时孝敬你.吃过早餐后,第二次采购我们就向往我们的目的地~sematan palm beach resort出发由于sem 2 时曾经到过sematan所以对palm beach有非常好的赞许及印象不过我还不是一个好的向导所以就由我们的船长阿舍冒这个惊险的探险.大约一两个小时我们就看到海边大家都说好美哦比santubong的还美不过我们的目的地还没到让你们过过瘾,哈哈...到达目的地后船长阿舍就带领我这'掌柜'去...当然是还钱啦..当我还钱是我真的愣住了怎么我们的钱要用完了还所剩无极.虾米怎么会这样最后没有经验担任掌柜的我在船长的带领下发现我们真的over budget 了.呜呜呜呜呜.暂时别想了还是准备我们的BBQ用料吧,然后沙滩游戏虽然我跟这群junior混得蛮熟的所以就不用再多余自我介绍因为几乎每次去camping,什么活动都会有新朋友,我这次的新朋友就是船长和二船长,船长就之前有小许的认识...晚上由于有六的人可以到餐厅哪里享受他们中秋节的晚餐那么剩下的四个人该怎办呢?船长就带我们几个小瓜到市区一带闯闯怎知我们的结果是要花费更多的经费.怎么办?就只好船长个人独自面对咯苦了他.下次真的得打听跟多的消息了不然...在还没正式BBQ之前就和几位junior来个沙滩night walk.哇靠在一个月圆之日在一个进潮和退潮差距很大的海滩上走,有没搞错?!不过我的感觉是毛骨悚然.下次不想要了,恐怖阴凉的海风配上八月十五的月光..哇美丽极了..BBQ完后就来个UNO大战还以为我的体力能够撑着看日出结果时间一到别说是日出连周公的样子都不认得了.早晨就来个海风加上日光以对缓缓我们依依不舍的心情..argh这么这么快就过完中秋了?呜呜呜呜:(我还想要...不过这次的trip真的带来我很多快乐,疏解压力,希望充电之后对我未来的'打仗'有所帮助不然可要求助孙子兵法了.
Wish GOD bless you and me,you all are the best because bring me a sweet memory before i graduate soon, i will keep it in my mind and do take care:D

first time using panaroma to take the picture..

side view of obster

rock climbing

evening view somewhere near to the sematan's town

早晨的海滩

LOVE....i like this pic so much

女人

2009-10-02T13:15:00.003+08:00

女人

容美如花般的美丽

多愁善辩

犹如温驯的海豚

犹如狮子般的猛兽

这一秒钟这样

下一秒钟那样

现在是公主

下一秒钟是巫婆

女人的心里所想及动作

或许在男人的眼里非常幼稚,

难搞的复杂理论

所以说女人千千万万别得罪

不然你可会被骂的狗血淋头

I AM WHO I AM?

2009-09-29T12:10:00.002+08:00

谁谁谁我到底是谁呢？
我发现我越来越无法理解自己，
曾经的我是那么的潇洒，
近来的我是多么的虚假总觉得是我自己捆绑把自己活在虚拟的世界里
要咽下一口气就是那么难
忧虑使我失眠了
这不是第一次已经是好几次
感觉总有一天一定会精神崩溃
外表有时会给人一个思想成熟使人无法与我有更近一步的认识
感情是那么容易擦肩而过
骗人怎么可能你就没有感情
说实在的不是我不要而是我的内心是那么的脆弱
根本就经不起情字的风风雨雨
曾经何时主呼唤你起来去传
你却已逃往来决定
祂不愿一人沉沦
但愿人人悔改
是的主我无法在我的事奉岗位上发挥袮赐给我的一切
袮的安排是否被我搞杂了呢？
你你你
我是那么爱吱吱点点
但是你们能不能体谅点为了一切的一切牺牲一点？
我是纳闷为何没人甚至主袮到底生在何处？
害怕面对父母，顾问，友谊甚至是为了逃避一切而把自己给‘冻结’
把自己试想处在寒冷的北极
你就是那么的冷血？
就不能将就一点搞好一切
老爸老妈我又再次是你们失望
师，学业及事奉上我又再次的对自己被你所期望而失望
我无法把退出这两个字说出口
有时我想为何我要这么幸苦放弃不行吗？
退出？放弃？狠？
你们的拖拖拉拉，胆却
会使我无法拆下面具，肩旁上的重担
朋友老妈你们费尽唇舌，苦口婆心劝我留下
啊!!!!
怎么了？你累了，说好的幸福呢？
我走了我累了
放手了好累了
我真的真的很累很累
我需要休息，一个美好的休息
休息是为了走跟长久的路…
我真的很想有所保留但言语与行为上是无法相提并论
读者们谢谢你们看我发发牢骚…

草于29/09/09 1:42am

A day with fool

2009-09-28T19:49:00.003+08:00

@#^%$*!
could you imagine that slept early in the morning then woke up around 8am something just because wanna attend a class at 9.30am but after wait for 30 minutes, the lecturer still haven't come, usually that lecturer always will come around 9.30am sharp if he late he also will inform us earlier or 5 minutes late without any information. but...today without any message from him and the class monitor busy to give the t-shirt for our class that he have promise to give us after raya's holiday. Then, i felt tiredness of lack of sleeping plus little angry with the sorrounding...hmm..don't want complaint and comment so much because already make my feeling down of waiting him. Then, after tabao at the cafeteria and have my lunch i suppose to have a rest but cause of tiredness i afraid if i sleep i dont think so i will wake up later just for english so i decide to 'visit' my muslim friends at next door then we all talk here and there. Around 1pm something one of the friend say our english lecturer decide to cancel the class..WHAT?! Is it a fool?whole day no class=fool..but i still want to wait the message from my class monitor so that i am sure then i can sleep nyenyap..but after few minutes when i prepare myself wan to sleep i receive a call from my classmate that the lecturer cancel the class so it is true then receive a call from my junior that a lecturer want look for me also because we need a discussion before the trip to sematan this coming saturday. After a few hour rest i suppose to feel fresh but i dont think so by then. WHY? Why i become like that?AM I suppose to release my angry?after i take bath, go cafeteria tabao, have my dinner, wash the clothes and prepare myself to go to fellowship but then i call a junior to inform her to ask the president ask all the members are they agree with the time changing of fellowship but she tell me that oh ya i need to tell you tonite NO FELLOWSHIP...SHIT sorry i use rude word in my mind, GOD i totally shock and cant use any word to decribe my day already totally full with FOOL..luckily i still can online through campus wireless now then i know that my classmate who the one call english lecturer to cancel the class just because nobody will attend the class..am I the one of nobody? or they just want to have fun..What for actually?FOOL..FOOL..fun of obtaining life?
!@#$%^&*

2009-09-18T19:30:00.003+08:00

away from study, assignments, quiz, exam and so on..feeling good. everyday just online and online part of my holiday's life..Should I do something special beside internet?ooh i also not sure what should I do, better use this chance facebooking and update my own blog..facebook ever make me crazy and ever make me bored..1 thing make me sad 2day which i found that my laptop got virus (trojan) luckily now i already kill it, it let me learn and recall back better dun use other people pendrive, hard disk o other external thing that belong to others. just a simple update and sorry 4 any language's error i still learn hard to improve my english..

2009-09-16T13:31:00.004+08:00

要是人生就像童话故事那该多好，世界就那么的和平，平淡的生活带点娱乐刺激或许比起残酷的世界来得更好那么世界就没那么多的纷争因而纠缠不清。
这几天的假期也给我有个机会放松一下以便拼个好成绩，好理想。前个星期残酷的考试夺取我的自由，简直physically and mentally都给折磨不清。对生活的沮丧难免又再次出现了。这次短暂的假期虽然没回家乡但似乎并没影响我的思念。“每逢佳节倍思亲”这句子希望在这次的中秋节能够彻底的减少。emm好像有了“新目标”哦当然因为这次听说有个活动希望它成为我最后一学期的学院生活添加一些美丽的回忆当然也希望活动的“筹委会”能举办成功。哈哈
这几天对celine dion的to love you more发疯式的狂听所以就把当中其中的歌唱来改改我对各事物来放松心情的渴慕尤其这次中秋佳节的庆祝方式..haha i think my brain got something wrong already maybe the wire didnt connect correctly..

I'll be waiting for you

Here inside my heart

I'm the one who wants to wait you more

You will see I can give you

Everything you need

Let me be the one to give you more

2009-09-11T11:50:00.005+08:00

yeah, friday again and tomorrow is saturday (of course lah)..huhu i can enjoy and relax and next wednesday after class i can go back lol even though im not going back and stay at kuching to have my 1 week sem break but i also happy to have it all cause by the word holiday..:) before next week coming i need prepare 5 test start on coming monday and also complete a assignment and submit it on monday.argh, 5 tests but after class i always switch on my laptop and online without any academic purpose.NO NO NO i must get into study mood 1st before enjoy my stressful or struggle life..

monday:pengurusan pembinaan and rekabentuk struktur keluli

tuesday:teori struktur II

wednesday:kejuruteraan tapak and hydrology

hope my study life wont like the picture above

2009-09-08T11:00:00.005+08:00

Recently feel tired and bad mood to everything, stress and hope i can quite and having great holiday to have good rest and relax my mind...Lord, lead me, i need　ＹＯＵ．．amen..

Just having 3 days and 2 nite at santubong on independent holiday but until now i still cant feel that i enjoy my life over there and last sunday indoor shopping at tHe spring..oh no, am i too stress?so i must 'throw it' away and relax myself..

Santubong is a place that i have visited more than 5 times but this time over there i had different feeling than last time because this is my last semester study at polytechnic and also i could make many new friends from other universities over Kuching with a cheaper registration fee..Short to say from this camp i could learn few new thing and get into to know my religious~christian.Series of talk of a professor from Taiwan seen quite difficult for me to understand but at last i could get some what he try to say. I not sleep well over there cause by the air-con over there too cold for me but i think i quite enjoy over there..

on sunday, my junior jonathan say a lect wan bring us to have a shopping, wow i like it even we dont have enough time to shop anyway i feeling better maybe i try to put away lot tonne of stress when something is interesting for me..hehe

古晋教区第一届大专生生活营

somewhere near the damai's golf club and the beach

人生如戏？！

2009-08-05T16:02:00.003+08:00

人类是个多愁善变的动物

为何？

人与人之间参差了酸甜苦辣

童年被甜与苦结合了生活，

被IT的花花世界征服大自然

少年就是苦读

成年4种口味参差

老年就是所谓的姜还是老的辣，

他们在商场上的磨练远远是我们输得心服口服

我的人生?

谈不上什么轰轰烈烈

只不过在过平平淡淡的日子

平淡中又带点愁苦

愁苦多来自课业，生活

钻牛角尖

还正处在学习，

对事情麻木的阶段

生活在世上仿佛是一场戏

一下是主角一下是配角

啊

人生多么多资多彩

o(∩_∩)o...哈哈

在人间一下办笑，哭，苦..

人的一生就看你们怎样过

别太执着

人就是看得开才能活得长久快乐

2009-08-02T18:32:00.003+08:00

tomorrow will start a new sem, oh no i still in holiday's mood n still crazy with facebooking, how?

2009-08-02T00:17:00.002+08:00

坚强不代表逞强

软弱不代表懦夫

任性不代表胜利

委屈不代表不幸

不代表不代表

该怎办？

软弱可是我的问题

假期就这样结束

成天无所事事

开学又是又是头痛的一天

啊

怎办？

HELLO KUCHING...STUDY N ENJOYABLE LIFE HERE I COME:)

DO PRAY FOR ME

PRACTISE MAKE PERFECT

2009-07-13T22:53:00.002+08:00

11.07.2008
恩青-姐妹会
station game没玩过这样的
hehe
七仔=姐妹的礼物
gathering after MYF
12.07.2008
崇拜 + 教会的多种用途中心开幕礼
p/s：我今晚就在那里打羽球
13.07.2008
Tired，累，letih
虽然累可是累得充实
下午忙完蛋糕的事
晚上就跑去打羽球
羽球的底子原本就不好
多年没碰羽球拍
今晚就是本姑娘出糗的时刻keke
不够还好大家都在教我..
谢了
今天也蛮开心的
哈哈该怎么说呢？
应该感谢天父及讲师
MUET-BAND 3
我这个懒惰虫竟会得到这个成绩
哈哈哈
没有准备的情况就这样bo liang bo zua进考场

假期countdown

2009-06-30T09:02:00.003+08:00

假期还剩下一个月的时间说长不长说短不短但对于我来讲还蛮长的因为成天都呆在家里还好有streamyx陪伴我不然我可不知道要怎样过呢。我的生活？当然就是吃饱了睡睡饱了吃只有一个字可以形容～猪。天天facebook，听听leona lewis的歌，哈不懂多爽。朋友一个个都会各自的学院开学了，我呢还呆在这鸟不生蛋的地方好闷哦。还有一个月的时间该怎样过呢？读书？哪有notes读不过还好还有卫理书房的图书卡借属灵书籍陪伴我好让我的头脑不会发霉生锈。其中一本是讲述日本留学生之母～丁妈妈，佩服都九十岁的高龄年纪了行动还很方便，脑力相信比我这位年轻人好几百倍，开朗，关怀，自信样样都好，有趣的是她原本是要读医学系的可是读了一个学期因为体重没有达到目标而被要求转系可惜要不然他现在不是一个物理学家而是一位医生不过他的愿望被他的儿子实现lol..他可是一个活生生的见证就是得到上帝的祝福可得的成功远远胜过各种事故..读完这本就会觉得读另一本假如给我学习机会（up from slavery)没那么大的吸引力，不过作者布克尔的确是凭着自己的努力而拥有学习的机会让我更加明白以前美国的社会白人和黑人的分别是如此的大，白人高高在上，黑人只可以成为白人的奴仆。

最后就以leona lewis歌当中我最喜欢的一首作为结束吧～here I am

This is a crazy world
These can be lonely times
It’s hard to know who’s on your side
Most of the time

Who can really trust?
Who do you really know?
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone?
Sometimes you just can’t make it on your own

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I’ll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am

If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I’ll be the one who understands
So take my hand

If there is emptiness
You know I’ll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you’ll never walk alone

Well, if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
Well, I’ll always be your friend

When you need a shelter from a rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am

Everybody need somebody who
[incomprehensible] heart and soul in two
Well, if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I’ll always be your friend

When you need a shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, here I am

2009-06-17T11:57:00.002+08:00

等待可以是件苦差

等待可以是件乐事

就得看大家的看法

生命是如此短暂

今天，明天，后天

只是时间的代表

一天24小时

对于一个没有计划的我来说完全不够

如复一日，夜复一夜

转眼间假期已来到第三个星期

心中扑通扑通的声音也再次显现

当然就是成绩揭晓的日子

怎么时间都停留在同一个方向

天怎么都没改变

一样是黑漆漆的夜晚

早晨是如此的缓慢来到

啊，苦了等待

还好上天的安排让我的成绩又进步

感谢，兴奋，高兴

都不住的从口中彷徨

感谢大家为我祷告

感谢天父的恩赐

today is my HAPPY　ＤＡＹ

2009-06-16T10:15:00.004+08:00

闷闷闷

假期快要生菇了成绩都这么久还没出什么两个星期，左盼右盼脖子都可以跟动物园的长颈鹿比了..haiz 姓马的办事效率大家都众所都知还是被批评人家了自己应该也好不到哪里去。天天都闷在家里快要发霉了啦，天天都是facebook，港剧，台剧都不知看了多少部最少也有五部吧。说到facebook还蛮好玩的朋友的profile和photo看腻了还有game好玩太好了。昨天也一口气看完三本书..哈哈没想到阅读能力没下降.其中以shadowlands（幽谷之旅）叫吸引及羡慕。这是一本讲述C.S.Lewis（Clive Staples Lewis）的一生，当我读完后觉得他是一位文艺非常好的写的书也非常的好看就拿chronicles of Narnia。虽然没阅读过故事书但看完电影真的非常好看当我读完这本书时才涣然大悟这是C.S.Lewis大慨是讲述自己的经历并加上想象力来加以描述缩写下的当然书中的狮子王Aslan真正是我们伟大的上帝我想主要可以讲写给基督徒的吧但也可以为非基督徒啦。。恨不得赶快把那七集找到阅读一下，但必须先把英文搞好因为原文书籍比翻译的书籍来得精彩..各位别忘了阅读可以增加知识及提高语言能力哦。虽然读的是自己的母语但终而言之还是有阅读嘛..KNOWLEDGE IS POWER

假期的写照

2009-06-03T18:58:00.009+08:00

放假真好不仅不用上课最要紧是不必一大清早起身准备好一切刚着去上课。。哈哈这就是身为学生的写照老实说其实身为学生并没没有坏处应该好处多于坏处吧。。天天都可以上网太好了，台剧，港剧太好了暂时再也不会与世隔绝了hehe。当然享受至于最担心的还是学期的考试成绩希望会考到好成绩不被那天的大病而影响。haiz别想了还是享受我的生活吧:)

是部蛮不错的港剧虽然是古装片但不闷这就是我会爱上港剧的古装片不过有时也要看了才会喜欢因为我不喜欢太闷的故事情节。他讲述一位应该算是米店的大老板（无赐-一座城市）可说是龙头当然最让人佩服的就是那位老爷不会糊里糊涂的把整间米铺给他的不孝大儿子，当然在古装片里妻子妾室的明争暗斗难免有的。最佩服的就是他的第四任太太帮忙他不少还把一大串钥匙都交到对的人手上也就是他的第二儿子

这是一部的爱情片～eme没太大的comment就是两位相差八岁的姐弟恋。阮元天最后还是为自己的过去所放弃的一切付出了（放弃当医学系的学生）和父亲的关系和好了证明给大家看他们之间的岁数没有影响他们的感情生活并更加成熟了。爱情戏都大同小异但给我它算是一部拥有完美结局的爱情片。。还在追敢的一部戏。。没太多comment好好啦等看完再来comment吧。个人觉得戏里的小孩阿B或彦祖很乖很听话。。小童星不错。。

放假都是吃饱睡睡饱吃不懂下学期要怎样开学应该是看到书就要逃跑，还是要休息一阵就开始为下学期及将来准备？还是做无业游民？就要好好享受之余为将来打算吧。。

文章也太colourful了。。哈哈

26.05.09

2009-05-26T21:26:00.007+08:00

finally i finish my final paper, 2day is my last paper from 11am-1pm which is aturcara kontrak n ukur binaan 2 but honestly i not really done well just finish wrote wat i know on d paper then go out early to caught d van at outside so that i can go to town then my aunt could pick me earlier if i not using d van at 6pm so that i could hav time to rest myself at my aunt home. when i wait at outside, 2 ppl beside me r going to batu 9 then another 3 guy say mayb no van bz they already wait 4 30 minutes then they left which mean only i will be using d van to town luckily my junior n her bf went to poly to take notes that my roomate n me gve it to her then she call me n send me to bus station..yeah..i could left the horrible place earlier n big thank you to both of you..wah within this two weeks totally many people helping me not only my sickness but also transportation problems..after hav a good rest i know feel much refresh n better than other day bz yest i sleep maybe just around 3-5 hours like that..cant imagine..when the lecture collect my paper i heard that he say got someone uncounsious oh no..in my mind how cum that peo can bcom weak like that..but at least at d time got many lecture around there helping her..

Regarding this sem, i need to sit 4 6 paper in the final exam which are hidraulik 2, geoteknik 2, kejuruteraan jalan raya dan pengangkutan, teori struktur 1, matematik kejuruteraan 3 and also aturcara kontrak dan ukur bahan.eme..quite happy bz heard that hidraulik 2 whole of us pass then geoteknik 2 also passed so now what i worried is highway bz i totally done not well as this paper n hidraulik 2 i not study well cause by the illness n tiredness..teori struktur 1 i just hope that the lecture will gve me a grade i wish bz i totally hope that i could get it and i regret im not use the following time to do 1 extra question when i recall bck i feel sad because if that day i use the following time due to my fast in using the calculator (self think too much 4 the fast way but my roomate comment me the way i use the calculator just like peo want go to attack the enermy using gun or wat else), i think i will manage to solve 3/4 of the answer..now the paper already pass no need to comment but when i recall back i totally sad bz if i do it carefully i can get all my answer correct..:(

Anyway i still hope that i could pass my exam well and take the time to rest well or charge my energy at least i could say bye to the illness...short to say even i dont have receive any tips from the lecture but i think at least i try hard in my exam i think n hope i could manage to get a good result..last we need feel gladful of our result because GOD have help us to do the best among the best no matter how our result was we need to be happy this is what i get from a friend when i join the camp last time..Thank everyone and GOD BLESS YOU and guide u 4 future

考试周

2009-05-22T19:45:00.002+08:00

哇超开心的，因为我的geotek考pass了虽然没A但及格就好，终于可以放下心中压抑许久的压力和重担。。但我蛮为那些对自己努力过却没pass的朋友难过，满生气的为何那些常常没来上课的同班同学竟然他们的PB可以高过我。试想想根本就不可能因为都没来怎么可能会回答平常的quiz和exam呢？不公平的世界再一次显现在我眼前。得知他们是马屁精就更加生气但这世界还是有点天理因为他们在final exam得分数很差。。这个考试真的是非常的折磨因为我生病了连续两个星期都在咳嗽，这个星期还加了发烧，发软，前几天就因为发软而滑到现在又加了伤风。幸苦啊。。但非常希望我在这次的考试能考取好成绩。。今天的theory of structure原本以为会拿100%但现在梦破了因为我竟然对自己太confident ganti错length事后跟那位讲师讲他讲他讲只能给我B。希望不是真的因为我很渴慕得到A。非常感谢传道和讲师载送我去马丹再也一带的clinic看病。。谢谢。。

2009-05-15T15:50:00.003+08:00

下星期一就开始考试了到目前才叫轻松因为这星期天天都在敢project，assignments，take home test，和quizzes plus exam有加上生病真是痛苦极了。啊。。好想快点放假。这学期过得真快，一转眼就要大考了。packing，study。。。

mon：hidraulik 2

Tuesday：geoteknik 2

wednesday： off day （hehe）

Thursday：kejuruteraan jalan raya & pengangkutan

friday：teori struktur 1

sat & sun： rest

mon：math 3

tues: aturcara kontrak & ukur binaan 2

fri: back home (yeapee)

last, wish me good luck and wish those who sit 4 exam good luck and god bless you：）

2009-05-01T16:23:00.002+08:00

压力呀压力

快被你折磨得喘不过气来了

你让我的生活变得无趣

你的存在固然重要

但有时压力太大

生活都变得紧崩了

对周遭都看的不顺眼

主啊，求你帮助我这罪人

好让我抛开一切烦恼

好好寻找美好的未来

未来未来你是如此的重要

学业，工作，未来样样重要

希望在这短短的几天自己的学习更上一层楼

谢谢大家的关心

希望大家能继续为我代祷

祝福。。：）

2009-04-26T15:15:00.003+08:00

就快final了， previous exam paper都还没开始做，功课都还没温习，不过压力却很大，不止是同济之间的排挤，竞争，好多好多的问题好像是冲着我而来，烦。希望这次的考试多多少少让我得到我想得到的。有时，真的觉得自己很笨为何这么心软，有时侯总得要铁石心肠不然真是人善被人欺。不是说我是善人但我真的很累看到你们的品行。人的忍耐是有限度的，有时真的很想逃离这里不过就是再不为自己的一切负责将来后悔就无法弥补了。
加油。。final

知己们都劝我不要为别人的一举一动影响

说真的很感谢你们一直以来对我的关怀

我会好好努力读书的

苦=甜

知足=快乐

就让我好好的享受人生吧。。。

a short and simple update even im quite mad with something but due to my assignments i need try my hard and best to do it myself bz knowledge is in our hand not other's hand so try hard and study hard besides smart..God gve my a grant hard to concentrate on everything...

拼搏

2009-04-04T18:03:00.000+08:00

人生有无数挑战，
拼搏才会胜利，
喜欢拼搏的人，
总是积极向上，
没有爬不上的山，
没有不敢爬山的人，
如害怕失败而不敢争取，
害怕奋斗的人，
始终落后在别人的后面，
只能徘徊在成功的边缘

04.04.2009

2009-04-04T07:22:00.000+08:00

crazy.. i also cant believe myself sleep at 4am then wake up again around 6 sumthing..argh..i also dun wan wake up early but i need to go to class so no excuse 4 me to escape but at outside is raining dogs and cats, it sound good 4 sleep rite..nvm try hard then later get a enjoyable life..juz a short update bz the line of internet connection no good at all even need pay rm6 per day..just a 1st try if got chance i wont use this kind of things...LOrd, plz gve me a clean n forgive me bout the jealousy n every bad thing bring me a new day full wif fun..AMen..Lets start a new day wif a smile:)

2009-04-04T01:28:00.002+08:00

This following week i think i need to challenge myself, just only next week i need to submit 2 lab's report, 3 assignments and sit for 3 or 4 quizzes and exam. Totally wanna killing myself..Whole nite i juz manage to finish 3/4 of a lab's report besides waiting d internet connection to become better so that i can get the latest update to my antivirus..THis week overall i not so happy as u know tere lot of assignments and quizzes need to study after this i need to bcom local 'PANDA' (not enough sleep). SOmetime i'm wondering why people can jealous easily not even myself but for those think i do wrongly this is wat i need to say talk or let me know wat my problem don't always like to complain nonsense of me at the back and once u need my help then talk with me but use the killer sound, this is how people treat people? sorry to say i wont help this type of people if you not yet change your attitude.For me if you want help from me as usual need tell me probably and dont simply make the rumours here and tere. Sometime i think wanna quit from the surrounding to find out myself while i'm tired and cant get well in study. SO to prevent n solve the problem like this, first i need breath deeply and pray in heart to gain a 'clean' and soft sorrounding 4 me to stay and study..在这之前我完全没想到讲师太常叫我的名字也可被同济吃醋。又不是我的错我真的好想痛哭一场，但我必须坚强因为这可是一个陷阱。不管你们怎样‘眼红’这是你们的事。我真的希望不受你们幼稚，无知的影响让我真真正正的做好自己的本分考好成绩。生活就是要竞争才会有进步不然哪来的‘黑暗’世界？！sien来日方长，唯有寻求主的帮助。。

my horoscope ~SCORPIO WOMAN

2009-03-22T12:14:00.003+08:00

A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her character. A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules. She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong. She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will only see a cute woman. Every things she does will look good, and she has all the woman's trick you can think of. She can manipulate men without they knowing it. If you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you, then you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling. She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good looking , strong and healthy man especially if she start to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a degree or a good career. She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there are no 'fond of', or 'like' for her. Love has no 'may be', or 'perhaps'. If she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has good quality as much as her bad tempered. Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress. She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper.

2009-03-20T20:08:00.003+08:00

再次的离别，

再次的伤感，

再次的压抑，

再次的独立，

好多再次都浮现，

读书压力无数次

使我无法克服

曾经的你是多么潇洒

如今却如此脆弱

要坚强

许多问题都可能发生

挑战生命

克服生命

向标杆直跑

加油！！

学习的道路如此艰难

克服了

远往直前

生命上才会有改变

My Name Acronym

2009-03-19T18:39:00.002+08:00

A- Appealing

L- Lazy

I- Intelligent

C- Cuddly

E- Easy

Intelligent i dont think so but the word lazy quite accurate to me bz im lazy in study..hehe
no matter how lazy i am i need to work super duper hardest so tat my result will be wat i wan or be better than wat i wan.. PRAY HARD for me..

2009-03-18T07:50:00.009+08:00

My study table look messy rite but the view at outside nice

Part of view outside my room

Look like hardworking student..but actually study it last minute( lazy student)

View outside my room again (early in the morning)

Maggie hot cup most student's 'Hot meal'

Did i wrongly buy?

It juz a short update..lazy to typing so juz upload some of my picture...

2009-03-17T17:21:00.002+08:00

昨天去检查眼睛，

得知我的闪光度数下降一边甚至没了好开心哦，

至少是一个新的开始。

现在每时每刻都与眼镜无法隔离

才后悔想想要是当初我好好的照顾眼睛

就不会是四眼天鸡了。

现在唯有好好照顾

希望度数别再增加

眼镜让我无法参加许多活动

2009-03-16T11:19:00.003+08:00

at home feeling good everyday just chatting, eating n sleeping..after 1 week i think im overweight n need long time to bcom kurus..

Home is a place 4 me to charge my energy...

2009-03-15T16:18:00.004+08:00

Thank a lot not only to GOD but also my parent because you all make me come back peace and safe to hometown and rest in this short holiday..For me this holiday is not a holiday as usual because lectures gve us lot of report, assignments, quiz and exam to study and finish it within 4 days for my class we can have one week holiday since my C4006 lect let us holiday on friday so we could have longer fun time..Since i arrive home on friday night i just sit in front of my laptop and desktop to check mail, chattting and also watch movie..Is it i need to stand for it for this holiday, say NO to entertainment after this because i need to control myself on entertainment n study harder because after this short break means charge my energy i need to face busier life than before holiday because as u know this sem is a short sem so we need rush in everything sumtime we need to submit at least one assignment and sit one quiz or exam in one day. Maybe for those who study at uni is a usual atmosphere but for me study at polytechnic is not usual as my course not easy than last time..Coz of exam n quiz n also other thing i always stress myself up n sometime think tat i wanna quit for it but after rethink i should continue it as i already choose wanna further my study after graduate..Thank GOD who always help me n plan 4 me n after pray hard or deeply in my heart i could feel better..haha..This is a student life so we need to face it for our future bz lect n parent or peo older than me already face it and is normal for them..after 1 month plus or 2 month study at tere i realize tat how short our life in this earth so no matter how hard need to enjoy perhaps believe in GOD only HE can make our life go smooth..

Crowd of people waiting check the ticket b4 enter the airasia airbus

Airasia airbus AK5914

2009-02-20T12:33:00.002+08:00

忙碌虽说是件苦差但解决了无聊及知识问题何尝不是身为学生的乐趣呢？

concentrate on study， away from entertainment and fun for a while

享受读书的乐趣才是我们应当的职责

难免有些困难但随着环境的影响才能更加的成熟（不论在思想，行为）

就拿这几个星期来讲几乎都会有quiz，assignments and so on

神是要试炼我们的耐力，

亲近神的时间才会使我安静我的心

我应该放下重担享受读书的乐趣。。

pointer固然重要但也要放松噢。。

忙碌的生活才会使我们过得跟充实。

改变环境，要先改变自己。。

世界因你我而改变，

没错！！

2009-02-14T12:43:00.002+08:00

I think after reading mail from my friend i need to fix a word which is BUSY bz it stand for Being Under Satan YOke..No matter how busy u r need take time pray, read the phase in HOly bible to close with GOD and away from Satan. I use whole nite to complete my report but i only manage to complete 40% like that bz i totally cant understand what the purpose and detail for the experiment so i need try manage my time well when free i need try to read the notes given by the lect so that i can do well for my report. That was my false because i didnt take time to do reading in the related field journal or books. Nevermind, i take time to attend the IPCF and church activity to calm down myself before start to do my revision with faith..Waiting people pick me so i take time to online at somewhere at the college compound since there is no more wireless connection at the hostel and also cafe.

2009-02-13T13:13:00.003+08:00

finally i can connect internet..short to say life in sem 5 or final year though and stress if compare to previous sem plus this sem is a short sem so everything must rush. LIfe at here quite boring since the day only fit with assignments, lectures, quiz, exam and so on. I still work hard to understand what lecture try to teach because all the basic i learn before industrial training i guess i forgot already so everything is new to me and i need to work harder and harder so that i can same level with my classmate plus i could understand what lect teach. Actually the lect here mostly they expect we all understand all the theory in the module before we enter the class. As a student like me, i quite lazy and almost all the time just sleep at hostel so im the first one quit from their list. Anyways start from this sem, i need work triple harder than before and make myself into the 'stress' and busy life before i enter to bachelor's degree with the entertainment to relax myself with coursework and concentrate on my study.. This just a short update to my blog bout my study life for the beginning of 2009. FOr those who read my blog, pray for me in what so ever religious so that my life will go smooth and good in everything as GOD always beside us..bye..is time for me to do my revision and start to do my assignments because only this weekends i could have extra time and start next week we goona start our tuition for MUET and sit for exam or even quiz so wish me GOOD LUCK and GOD BLESS

2009-01-28T13:57:00.002+08:00

今年的新年对我来说感觉一点新年气氛都没有。成天只想我在家睡觉还好不是猪年不然我可被扯上关系了。朋友们的邀约都只是敷衍他们会去到最后还不是我在家玩电脑，看戏或是睡觉。haiz一想到要回古晋了，就想到我还有4个drawings （architecture& structure drawings 的话一共是八张drawings要画。惨，身为学生的代价就是这样。所以，我应该想开点因为读书的时间不是很长不过将来工作时间就没有这么的逍遥了。开心？伤心？无聊就来上上网update blog。。。

2009-01-26T12:05:00.002+08:00

Wish all my friends and all the reader have a HAPPY and BLESSED CHINESE NEW YEAR ,May the Year of Ox be full of prosperity and good fortune and hope all your dreams will come true and GOD BLESS:)

2009-01-24T17:34:00.002+08:00

A few day in college and attend certain class, i only can make a conclusion is this sem want to get in Dean list is not a easy work because the PB and final already change 50:50 not like last time 60:40 again so if i want get in it i need work hardest as i could besides the time for us to attend class only less. For my college compound i also found there got some improvement on going and done by my college, like ATM machine, kiosk for those who cant get in the hostel to rest, a new library and also mechanical building if i not mistaken and also another new building i not so sure what it for. BEsides, if there is raining we do not need to risau since there is roof along the walkway and some floor tiles be used on the way to cafeteria and also some BK's building. I glad to say congratulations to my college i can see there have an improvement..

2009-01-23T21:07:00.004+08:00

finally i got 1 week holiday for CNY so no need to buy a new air ticket to replace the old one. SO happy..THis morning i already register the MUET exam so i going to sit for it in the April so hope me will work hard on it and upgrade myself and yesterday my english lecture say writing blog can improve our writing skills, for me it maybe true if i use proper english so hope i can improve my writing skill because the way i write very lousy and got a lot of grammar mistake. When i want register the MUET, the KJ of JPA so nice and got ask me lot of questions, can be good talker..Finally i can bck to hometown today actually i suppose to bck on 2moro bz airasia retime so i can change the time to come bck earlier so that i can have longer holiday and also prepare the things needed in my study. IT is another for me to use air bus come bck to bintulu and it is nice than BOeing 747 as is larger than it and it much high tech and so many advantage but when arriving in bintulu there is heavy rain but there is no more ground staff to help us so we need to open and close the umbrella self. so bad that Y it call cheaper price but sometime the way the serve us no good hope they will improve it to give good impression to local and overseas tourist..That all i can update my blog and i will try to update it some other day..

self entertainment

2009-01-18T21:24:00.004+08:00

趁着闲空的时间终于把laptop里的戏看的七七八八了，最让我觉得好看的电影就是刚上映不久的电影-Madagascar 2-escape 2 africa。里面的lion， Alex 原本就在那里出生可是再一次的意外被送到 New York 的 zoo 里头虽然与父母相隔但最终还是与父母相认。Alex与朋友们之间的友谊我觉得非常羡慕它们不论到哪一个地方都分不开它们虽然之间有些意见不一。这部电影非常值得看，一半可以从中学些英语，强化我的listening，它也是部非常搞笑让人觉得很轻松的电影。。

1仙

2009-01-18T16:49:00.005+08:00

今天去超市买东西要还钱时，收银机显示 09 仙还以为他会round去10仙。怎知他们那家超市还有接受1 仙。自从马来西亚政府宣布没有使用1 仙后，因为制造它的费用比他原价还要高所以决定不再使用它。几乎全马就没再用了，下次去那超市的时候真的要把 1 仙全挖出来用。

2009-01-17T23:29:00.005+08:00

i am wondering why i like to sleep all the time, is it im tired or i lack of sleeping? i dont think so maybe one of my favourite is sleeping especially there have nothing for me to do..for me sleep can make my time go faster and start on next tuesday i need register myself at polytechnic and start my new study life again with boring works and everyday study, study and study if not assigments, quizes and test fill in my time with no entertainment especially surf the internet so now what i want to do is update my blog as usual that i could because after next week it is hard for me to update my blog and soon i wil look like lack of sleeping everyday just to complete my assignments until late at night then wake up early and go to class..anyway i hope i can stand it with the help of chicken essence (but not yet try it hope it will help me to stand and score well until in the end of this year) and hope all the readers and all people around pray 4 me..haha

2009-01-16T09:09:00.005+08:00

wow totally happy because my name in the namelist of senarai nama rayuan pertama..until now i dun hav a word can say my feeling..so first of all i need say THANK YOU to u, GOD.I know its ur works so since now i need to plan well in my time to upgrade my english level so that i can sit for MUET exam and score well in it. Besides, i also plan well in my study time to do well all the subject in this final year. :) NOw i totally get into what i want so i also need to 'pay' back to GOD by study hard and pray hard and believe HIM and read the bible, stick to become a characteristic look like HIM because HE always care to us..after receive this great news i tell my mom and also some close coursemate or friends so that they will know they also get it..I kinda miss my life at Bintulu but anyway i also need to study hard and get into Dean list so that i can enjoy my 2 month holiday to pay bck the only 2 day CNY holiday:)

2009-01-15T20:20:00.004+08:00

真是难得的机会能够上网，虽然是免费的不管服务多差还是写写部落格吧。。就说说近来的生活。。

12日

×check in那位服务人员看到我的luggage11.1kg就在那边说就算你要进三个luggage也不可以超过 15kg，还好没超过不然口袋就要大出血了

×飞机延误也没早点通知，到八点才透过screen告诉我们，Airasia真聪明

×在飞机上差点会得到心脏病，天气太差，一直下雨

×飞机一直左右摇摆，有两次还在没准备之下直接下降两次

×还好一切顺利

×平安到达古晋，拿好luggage快晚上十点了

13日&14日

×没什么特别，睡觉，收拾我的物品。

×做些整洁工作

×无聊

×玩game

×看戏

15日

×大清早随表姐的车去van sewa 那里坐van去poly

×用了我整整2小时等

×还好朋友蛮快到的虽然她家很远，聊聊天：）

×uncle也蛮好的，怕我等到睡觉就个我聊聊，告诉我poly的事情

×大约十点到了那里，一路上都在下雨所以有点狼狈，别去管太多，交了我的report就算了

×lect commect log book加点东西，这个lecture很好的，只要符合条件不会被reject

×要去JPA register MUET，门都快被我们打烂了，还是没反应（大慨大家都偷懒去了哪里）

×交rayuan，都不懂他们会不会收留我。最好中宿舍：）

×到BSN看到好多朋友虽然只是短暂的也好啦

×到CIMB,工作效率太好了不必等太久

×坐van去town，又到同样的马来档吃laksa sarawak虽然味道不是很好但最少我不会饿

×到复印店去复印文件无意间听到老板的对话，那天flood的water level是一尺。

×近来看到下雨到怕了。

×回来冲凉，小睡后起来发冷，可能又要生病了：（

blog就到次。。

告别

2009-01-12T00:46:00.004+08:00

不到一天的时间，我就要告别，民都鲁再次回到古晋继续我的学业。说真的我当然是怀着一颗伤心的心情回去。为什么？？当然是觉得我所遇到的事都不是那么的顺利，现时没有得到第一批的宿舍，新年假期就这么两天而我的机票是买来回一个星期呢？难道真的要废掉那价值100++的机票？那可是足足够我一个月的生活费呢？不值。不止是这样连我在报到后住宿都会成为很大的问题，第一要是住外面交通可是我最大的问题。应该说我的人缘不够好还是我不过美吧。。哈哈怎么办呢？希望自己能快快中选宿舍，很怕他们上次没收到我邮寄的表格，主啊，我真的真的好怕没宿舍住哦。希望你能给我力量让我能顺利得到我所要的，可能对你来说满过分的，因为我所要求的都希望你能给我，你所要求的我未必达成，我应该谦卑但我没有。。怎办。。不靠你我还能靠谁来鉴定自己呢？难道自己？不可能。我sem 3 就尝过这滋味，拿不到AKJ并把成绩搞到跌倒谷底。这次都听大家说sem 5 是很难的。但我唯有相信上帝远离撒旦对我的诱惑，至少要对读书附上全责，对自己的未来负责。说得到轻松但我觉得做起来·又是另一回事。别怕，有上帝的同在我一定可行的。要给自己信心不让怎能成功呢？事奉将会成为我灵命上成长的帮助。希望这几个月在青团的学习会带给我在带团契的帮助。

say goodbye to friendster, blog, email, MSN and any other internet connection. I gonna offline and try to study hard on my final year study and hope get flying colour in my exam and successfully graduate in the end of this year.. any thing tat happen to me only i can do is keep it in my memory especially friendship..anyways KEEP IN TOUCH and hope GOD BLESS YOU ALL. at here i also need to say HAppy BIRTHDAY to my blog's reader and all my family member and friends and also HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAr (bull year) GOOd luck to everybody sit 4 any exam in this year..

加油！！GAMBATAE

-BYE-

2009-01-12T00:36:00.003+08:00

你这架‘笨’printer真拿你没办法，那天明明就有install就是不让我print气死我了。不过最后还是感谢你因为没你我就不能把我的LI report完成。还蛮有成就感的不过最重要的还是lecturer的接收。希望不会有任何的更改。感谢你，HP deskjet D2560。。当然好要感谢赞助我买这架printer的父母啦。。谢谢

下雨天的民都鲁

2009-01-11T14:40:00.003+08:00

雨季的关系，近日来几乎每天都下雨。看到下雨，担心和害怕得不得了。那天，家里的卫星被风吹到了。我的天啊，我自己都难以置信，要不是亲眼见到我还不相信。第二天，路旁的树倒了，到处都是涨水，民都鲁就快要像诗巫了，低洼的地区经过大雨就会涨水了。

NITE LIFE

2009-01-09T23:57:00.004+08:00

me myself also cant imagine i sleep lately almost everyday after my practical end last month and i need prepare myself continue my study again.Today after MYF we go to 1 place to celebrate MYF's sister birthday even there is heavy rain. After MYF we usually have a short gathering and from them i knoe tat THE NIGHT STILL YOUNG after i cum bck from the gathering bz after eating, i almost cant sleep and my sleeping tme will be on the next day morning. So if you saw my eye alike panda u dun be shock to see it it will be usual for me bz it a part from my life, usually ned much time to complete assignments..After recall bck tat place i think tat would be 1st time n my last time to enter tat place again bz not fair....i think i not the type like the clubbing or nite life at club, i think mamak tang or cafe much suitable 4 me bz i dislike the place got smoker bz i cant tahan..and mamak tang got much choice of food to eat..who ask me fatty tat cause by like to eat thing even a small amount bz born in giant size family..after tat we got chance to round town, as u knoe recently Bintulu having heavy rain almost everyday and today not only heavy rain but also thunderstorm . Not only my home area but also town area and almost every place will having flood especially at the kampung area. Flood over here and there so we need change our decision to coming bck since tere is no entry 4 us to enter the road.HOrrible..Every christian we need to pray hard for our weather and our healthy and safety in our country ..

五味交杂的心情

2009-01-06T23:54:00.002+08:00

不知是什么原因让我近日来有点舍不得家的心情越来越重。或许是在家享受惯了，一想到要回去古晋继续我的学业，想到就快哭了。或许是我的软弱吧，就拿近日来最看的港剧有时看着看着眼泪都快飙出来了，说我感性我倒不觉得因为身旁的朋友有些可以读一读小说就可以哭了，要是我就不可能除非那是真人真事也不一定能够感动我，或许最近比较感性吧。想着想着又开始担忧了，觉都可以不睡难怪多数人到讲我不像实际年龄的我，较成熟，我想有一半是来自我成天为每件事担忧所造成的，一点点的小事也烦，这也难怪啦。家境不是那么富有对父母要求的每件事未必得到我所愿，这也算是父母给我成长的机会吧。虽然读的是政府学院，但是比起中学来说会更加的惨。宿舍不是给你们直接得到还要花费时间，小笔的金钱来申请（邮票啦。。LI生）。最让我伤心的事你们口口声声说有放错的人是不可能得到宿舍的但是你们都是骗人的。那些成天抽烟的人还不是照样得到，不让就拿父母的工钱来讲，难道我父亲身为公务员就算有钱人吗？？？！你们就便宜的把应该得到宿舍的机会给那些有钱人（作假的工钱单吗）没天理。我深深的体会到了你们是口头上的承诺没有实际行动的人。。对你们的失望绝对不是偶然的，那是我堆积的心情所呈现在你们眼前。我真希望快乐能把我的忧愁给带走。。没有internet connection就已经让我与外隔绝还好我LI公司可爱的同事把应该适合我的电脑游戏save给我好让能帮我解闷。真要谢谢他。。不能说你不可爱因为你竟然跟我这位LI生比较熟，我太爱讲话了啦！连我自己也难以相信吔。只要投缘的都可以了个没完没了。。：）主啊，求你扶持我别让我失望，让我相信你已为我准备了一切。。好吧就开开心心的看戏，放松下不愉快的心情。享受人生。。

港剧-溏心风暴之家好月圆

2009-01-06T09:40:00.004+08:00

最近，追看溏心风暴之家好月圆。它是一部我觉得好看的戏，所以最近都一直迷恋。或许它够真，或许是演员是俊男美女吧。不过它是一部蛮好看的戏。。在看这部戏的当儿我的心情也随他波动。。

travelling

2009-01-04T22:53:00.005+08:00

I felt happy because got chance go to Miri on december 2008 and a trip to Sibu on january 2009. It might help me to charge and refresh myself before going back to kuching soon to complete my final year in civil engineering. Even only a short distance but most important is i can relax myself since i don't have enough financial support to go far from sarawak but at least i manage make myself closer to my family member and a short gathering between cousin. sorry if i got any english mistake, i still work hard to improve my english level since i plan to sit MUET in this year.

a trip to miri on 26/12 until 29/12.

miri view

a christmas decoration in Imperial Hotel, Miri.

agape castle in Imperial Hotel also..Agape is one type of love which can find in Holy Bible.

cousin's wedding cake

a lot of picture cant upload cause im not the one who take it..haiz..

future

2009-01-04T22:46:00.004+08:00

Before become an engineer, a student must work hard and go to site to take experience before becoming a successful engineer...the picture below is my future dream..hope my dream will come true but before that i need work hard for my diploma in this final year before got chance to enter the Bachelor's degree in future..GOD bless Me and work hard for DEAN's List

实习期间在家乡美好回忆

2009-01-04T22:30:00.005+08:00

2008 下半年对于我来说是我人生中充满了喜乐，这段日子教会我好多东西，工作，现实，灵性，各个问题希望不止是我美好的回忆也是我人生更上一成的学习。

第一次学习QS的工作

第一次去长屋

第一次去家乡青团

吃冰地点

好多的第一次，哇哈哈

2009-01-01T10:03:00.006+08:00

2008年对我来说不知是开心还是不开心，开心就放在心上不开心的就丢弃他吧，忘了他。。

2008年january-june

*读书

*assignment

*test

*final exam

*IPCF (inter poly christian fellowship)

*no fun or joy

*no entertainment

2008年july-December

*practical at Paling Construction Sdn Bhd

+an opening of life with fun, laugh, and i enjoy it so much..

+eng kwong MYF & choir

+a short travelling to miri

+get my driving's license

2008年就这样结束了多少有点舍不得但是我希望他是我的美好回忆，2009年希望一切顺利。。。GOD BLESS ME

Happy New Year 2009

2008-12-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

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考车记（real test）

2008-12-22T18:47:00.003+08:00

感谢主，我今天终于把车考pass了，连续几天的担忧终于过了，
今早太紧张了，师傅问我睡得好吗, 我说睡不好，师傅还安慰我别想太多，真得好好谢谢你师傅
太好驾的车也不好，
油门太大力，还没上道上顶就滑了
好彩的二次会上
到上顶要下山，油门太大力差点滑下及时拉hand brek 补救了
驾到一半我一直怀疑为何我的车一直失火
后来才发现原来不知是哪个人开aircon
parking还好，勉强，三角弯出来后不知是不是踩到白线，
那考车官跟另一个考车官讲害我吓到
他叫我驾进pondok旁边我还以为我fail了
他第一句话就问我，
sir:amoi apa hal macam ni？ mau pengsan sudah kah？
我： saya terlalu nervous
sir：mana boleh macam ni。。nanti susah lagi。。
我：o。。encik，saya pass kah？
sir：pass。。sign sini。。cepat nanti saya mau test orang lagi
我：TQ
sir & other sir & mdm：eh。。。hati2 jangan jatuh

还没来得及喘气，就要开始第二轮的出路，
出路更惨，看到traffic light 闪我还犹豫，
不知是怎样决定的，
tukar gear 2 + 油门
我想坐我旁边的madam吓死吧
要越路时打好signer light
那架死HILUX 我还没过时又驾慢慢
到我到他前面又horn我

让我在车上想应该是fail了
进去时还在犹豫到底要不要换一号gear
换了差点失火，
才想到是用二号gear才对
管他就让他过
好彩过了还不敢看成绩
老二老板问我会过吗
我把纸给他看
他说过了
跟老爸走过要跟师傅讲
师傅做个比试
老爸就回他
我只能以微笑来表达了

谢谢我的朋友，同事，家人，师傅，最重要的还是天父
总算没辜负你们的期望
GOD Bless Me and hope GOD bless u..
anyways pray n sing d song is good way n better way 4 me 2 comfort my feeling..

考车前的心情

2008-12-20T15:02:00.002+08:00

不知为什么只要考试，比赛前都会很紧张，

有时甚至会身体不适，

手脚发冷，软对我来说可能是我最轻的紧张反应，

下星期一才正式考

昨天起已开始紧张

希望下星期一能顺利把车考过，

希望不会紧张。。

take it easy..

hope God bless me..

pray hard..

考车记（part 1）

2008-12-14T11:41:00.003+08:00

算是松了半口气，

终于完成了试考，

早上非常紧张，

连笑都笑不出，

更别说是别的了，

考官跟平时师傅教的有点不一样，

还是听师傅的好，

虽然差点就不过但还是感谢上帝在我紧张之余还能考好，

不能发挥如一般学车样但总算过了，

希望来临的正式考能做得较好，

加油，，，

怒

2008-12-10T18:53:00.003+08:00

难道。。

只有你们可以忘记然后被原谅，

我就不能，

默默地被你们骂

忍耐是有限度的

解释的机会都没有，

眼泪就快飙下了，

忍一时风平浪静，

退一时海过天空，

我做到了，

虽然不是100%，

帮你还被你误，

让你闲或许也是错，

以牙还牙，高鼻子或许是你的本性，

我可以忍，但你也别太过分了，

经验是你的本钱，

坏脾气让你得罪了许多人，

或许你不觉得，

只有你的是urgent，

别人的都是可以慢慢来，

求人时低下身，

人求你时我想最好铺好红地毯，

龙椅给你，

跪下来求你，

狗眼看人低，

haiz。。

现实就是这样吧。。

06/12

2008-12-07T00:47:00.005+08:00

有点失望，

星期一假期-没学车，

期待已久的策划，

无法实现，

无法啦，

随它吧..

快试考，

考车，

驾照，

实习就要结束，

means that 逍遥自在的生活就要结束，

2008 年成为历史

let's celebrate

我难忘的7月-12月就这样结束..

haiz...

sad or happy??

珍惜短暂的日子吧..

随

2008-12-07T00:19:00.002+08:00

一切只能随缘，

是你的就是你的，

无法勉强，

无法控制的事，

就随他吧，

我不会是每件事的主人，

最终还是由主决定，

所以不得气馁，

钱财，外表不能决定一切，

唯有内心的真诚才是正确。。。

担心无法成事，

该如何是好呢？

用真诚打动友情，亲情，爱情，

正所谓勉强没幸福。。

但难预料，

世界太现实了。。

lyrics:You are my all in all by Aaron Gayden

2008-11-29T15:33:00.008+08:00

You are my strength when I am weak

You are the treasure that I seek

You are my all in all

Seeking You as a precious jewel

Lord, to give up I'd be a fool

You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God

Worthy is Your name

Jesus, Lamb of God

Worthy is Your name

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame

Rising up again I bless Your name

You are my all in all

When I fall down You pick me up

When I am dry You fill my cup

You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God

Worthy is Your name

Jesus, Lamb of God

Worthy is Your name

oh my Jesus, Lamb of God

Worthy is Your name

Jesus, Lamb of God

Worthy is Your name

为什么？？？

2008-11-29T15:17:00.002+08:00

为什么会这样？

无数的问号出现在我的脑海里？？？

难道是太紧张了？

还是不专心？

难以了解自己的心情...

就要试考了，

为何我还是这样呢？

难以捉摸的个性，

我唯有投降，

对自己要有超凡的信心，

投靠上帝，心里一直祷告...

让我联想到一首诗歌，《我以祷告来到你跟前》

haiz，真希望能把车一次就考成..

为我祷告吧！！为我加油的力量...

失望

2008-11-27T18:18:00.001+08:00

对你们的失望绝对不是偶然的，

不负责任，

没耐心，

小脾气，

麻木的事奉，

不专心，

推卸责任，

希望我能学像耶稣般的爱你们怜恤你们，

成为真真正正的基督徒，

事奉上帝，

唱诗赞美，

读经祷告，

平复我的心情，

除去心中的怨恨。。。

怕

2008-11-22T14:29:00.002+08:00

害怕使我无法成功

失望

2008-11-20T12:55:00.003+08:00

难到就不能专心点吗？

心不在焉，一塌糊涂

睡眠不足就是借口吗？

总得把时间拖得越久就开心吗？

为什么会变得如此懒惰

快把自信找回来，别再拖了

加油！！！

忧郁

2008-11-18T12:31:00.003+08:00

刚读到由何牧师的作品《心路》让我获益良多

书中的一章，跛足的传道人就提到他换上了忧郁症

难以想象吧，

别说是牧者，我们这些学生都有可能换上

读了几句发现自己也有换上此病的可能。。。

但必须记得：

刚强的人不可能永远精力旺盛，

智慧的人不可能永远都有充足的准备，

勇敢的人不可能永远蛮有勇气，

喜乐的人不可能永远的快乐。

为了不让我自己换上此病，我想唯有放松心情，读经，祷告才能得到快乐

加油！！！

有关系就没关系，没关系就有关系

2008-11-16T14:22:00.005+08:00

有关系就没关系，没关系就有关系。值得思考的一句话。。。

（这句是昨晚的查经会立开传道要我们三思的一句话）

其实在我们生活中只要一帆风顺我们就会离开上帝。。

我个人总认为以下事跟天父没关系，其实是有关系的

1.学业

2.人际关系

3.朋友

4.身边的任何事物

尤其上学期使我跌进了谷底，

成绩一落千丈，

人际关系很差，

团契带得死气层层没活力。。

使我罪恶缠身

所以这学期虽然我人在家乡实习，

但那是最充实的了

上班，参加诗班，青团

仿佛上帝对我这迷失的羊

安排了美好的生活

最后，我愿把圣经中的一句话做我人生低潮时的鼓励

《我靠着那加给我力量的凡事都能做》

<下雨天-南拳妈妈>

2008-11-12T19:11:00.003+08:00

下雨天了怎么办我好想你

我不敢打给你我找不到原因

为什么失眠的声音变得好熟悉

沉默的场景做你的代替陪我等雨停

期待让人越来越沉溺（疲惫）

谁和我一样等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞一个人擦泪一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不出哪些差别

结局那还能多明显

别说你会难过别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉下雨天

What kind of person are you?

2008-11-11T17:57:00.001+08:00

Unnoticed in the matter
You might be cool, you might be normal, you might be alot of things. But this kind of thing is something that didn't pass your mind too often.

http://www.quiztron.com/quiz.asp

难以相信的结果

2008-11-11T17:29:00.006+08:00

去了一个叫精神年龄鉴定的网站，听名字满吸引我的，鉴定结果我的年龄竟然是四十一岁。我的天啊，好难相信，之后又去鉴定一次，依然是那岁数的上下。之前，很多人都讲我很成熟，现在不不承认也不行。。http://mathsking.net/test/think.htm （大家可以去试试）

忙碌

2008-11-09T00:27:00.003+08:00

忙碌的生活+ 开心

对于我来说才是享受

压力只会让我抗拒生活

忙碌+开心+充实 - 我的至爱

疲惫=痛苦

2008-11-09T00:03:00.004+08:00

疲惫

让我对每件事缺乏信心

睡眠极度重要

对某些人来说一天三个钟足够

但对我十个钟还不够吧。。。

痴睡，我的毛病

睡眠不足=痛苦

做任何事都没mood

心灵的疲惫才是最痛苦的。。

Obama-First black america's president..

2008-11-06T21:10:00.004+08:00

Obama be first american president..hurry let's celebrate..Congratulations to Obama..America is d 1st democration country to let none white peo to become a president..Obama, gambatae..hope u can make changes to the world!! He make me interest in reading to his story recently even on9 or newspaper..unbelieveable.. Yes, we can .. i think this word is useful to me so that when i trouble in studying next time i can say to me, Yes i can..

05/11/2008

2008-11-06T21:06:00.003+08:00

Today, first time again enter MBB to help comp bank in cheque..This time a bit challenge coz I didn’t know how to fill in d slip..but nwm stil hv staff to help me to fill in so I only need to wait for my turn to go to the counter to give all the thing to the banker. haha..everytime ask dad to do it so now I got learn a new knowledge again and another first time 4 me to enter PBB second floor since I enter PBB be4 but I never been 2nd floor bz it not related to me to go tere..hehe..be a office boy or office gal is not easy thing, now wat I learn is useful when I grow up later since I’m already a young adult..

赞许

2008-11-06T21:00:00.003+08:00

左盼右盼,终于又到了学车的时间了,parking和上山对我来说真的难倒我了,一下tukar gear踩clash,一下又看黄线,举手.好难噢.师傅的驾车技术好好哦,我几时能在短时间像师傅一样熟练呢??
师傅:clash踩完
我:oh.
师傅:不要那么粗鲁,打gear慢慢来,别那么紧张..
师傅:快点转string,转太多了.
师傅的comment(你control string 不好,string每次都给你转倒算才停)
师傅:注意看tayar 有没超过黄线..
我:(望了外面)我根本都看不到tayar..
师傅好多comment 噢,但他也是为我好,真想快快考好车...
师傅:你已经算不错了..(安慰我的吧,想增加我的信心)

今天真的心情超好的,在公司被上司、同事们称赞..Y说就算十个人来,不会做事的来干嘛..L1 说Y在indirectly称赞你呢? L2及M说你以前又没叫他们做事.. (难到我这女生几时变成超人了一人能顶十人,还是你们被我的美色给迷恋了,开玩笑的,我这胖猪会美到哪里去)这可能是上帝给我的恩赐吧..感谢你天父,让我事事顺利.我或许没有外在的美貌但你从旁给了我一个非常好的学习机会..L2跟L说如果我跑了你就完蛋了,真的他们两时不时会叫帮忙他们,到有点担心L因为他的电脑很烂..J say kalau u lari nanti tak ada orang tolong kira drawings.. I need to say actually my taking off not well, can say not yet learn bout tat part but at least u peo willing to teach me n let me knew many new things so big thank you to u all, I also can save my money to take a cert 4 QS hehe...anyways my LI only left less than 1 month, I’m quite sad to know bout it..:( hope that can join to u peo as soon when I’m graduate in 2009..Experience important for my future, I’ll stick what I learn from u people in my mind and always be remember even my memory not good in memorize things as long as you peo dun 4get bout me..

01/11/2008

2008-11-06T20:55:00.003+08:00

盼了好久终于到我学车的时间...好兴奋噢.坐上车的感觉真不一样,好难形容..兜了两圈,终于爱上车了..hehe..晚上,参加完青团后一组人去喝茶聊天.聊到一半时,主席突然问我,你那MSN的照片在哪儿拍的?回答后,他突然说好像做苦工喔!我听后差点从椅子上跌到地面..现在的治安真是超坏,以前是贼怕我们,想打抢得偷偷摸摸,现在反倒是我们提心吊胆,他们光天化日造案.haiz,我想现在唯独相信耶稣才是对的了..当晚 “H” 的club举办万圣节,看到他们玩得很疯,真羡慕

可怕的装扮

Lyrics - Here I Am To Worship

2008-10-30T18:59:00.007+08:00

Light of the World

You stepped down into darkness

Opened my eyes, let me see

Beauty that made this heart adore You

Hope of life spent with You

Here I am to worship

Here I am to bow down

Here I am to say that

You're my GodYou're altogether lovely, altogether worthy,

altogether wonderful to me

King of all days, oh so highly exalted

Glorious in heaven above, humbly You came to the earth You created

All for love's sake became poor

I'll never know how much it cost, to see my sin upon that cross.

'Call'

Call upon the name of The Lord and be saved

背叛

2008-10-30T18:51:00.004+08:00

从古时, 亚当背叛了上帝
从古时,犹大背叛了耶稣

今生的我们...

信徒间的背叛
父母,儿女间的背叛
夫妻间的背叛
情人间的背叛
亲戚间的背叛
朋友间的背叛
雇主与雇员间的背叛
同事间的背叛
领袖间的背叛

背叛啊背叛
你是多么恐怖的...

尽力而为

2008-10-30T18:32:00.002+08:00

有时,你是否感到压力重重, 几乎力不能胜? 在你的生活中可曾有一些阶段,被生活重任压得喘不过气来, 根本没时间预备主工?
贾西普牧师曾有过这样的经历, 在一个极其忙碌的星期里, 他无法像往常有足够的时间准备讲章.主日早晨,当他走上讲台, 心里甚感愧疚, 就好像主在问他:「你这一周为我尽力而为了吗?」贾西普诚实地回答说: 「主啊, 是的,我已经尽力而为了. 」他后来告诉一位朋友, 那一天,耶稣大大使用准备不足的讲章,在主的手中,它成了会众的帮助.
使徒保罗写信给帖撒罗尼迦的信徒,鼓励他们把所有的献给上帝(帖撒罗尼迦前书5章14-22节),教导他们要勉励、警戒、安慰、喜乐、祷告,并要凡事感谢上帝.在基督徒的生活和服事中,我们也应该尽力而为.但在压力重重,实在无法充分准备时.此时我们该做的,就是尽力而为,然后祷告仰望上帝的信实(24节).

摘录: “灵命日粮” (2008年9月6日)

<说好的幸福呢-周杰伦>

2008-10-29T18:12:00.004+08:00

你的回话凌乱着

在这个时刻

我想起喷泉旁的白鸽

甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯

我还爱你呢

伴你断断续续唱着歌

假装没事了

时间过了

走了

爱情面临选择

你冷了倦了我哭了

离开时的不快乐

你用卡片手写着

有些爱只给到这

真的痛了怎么了你累了

说好的幸福呢

我懂了不说了

爱淡了梦远了

开心与不开心一一细数着

你再不舍

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻

我都还记得

你不等了

说好的幸福呢

我错了泪干了

放手了后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

要怎么停呢

你的回话凌乱着

在这个时刻

我想起喷泉旁的白鸽

甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯

我还爱你呢

伴你断断续续唱着歌

假装没事?时间过了走了

爱情面临选择

你冷了倦了我哭了

离开时的不快乐

你用卡片手写着

有些爱只给到这

真的痛了怎么了

你累了说好的幸福呢

我懂了不说了

爱淡了梦远了

开心与不开心一一细数着

你再不舍

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻

我都还记得

你不等了

说好的幸福呢

我错了泪干了

放手了后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了

说好的幸福呢

我懂了不说了

爱淡了梦远了

我都还记得

你不等了

说好的幸福呢

词：方文山曲：周杰伦

挣扎

2008-10-25T17:29:00.002+08:00

挣扎是件苦差,
痛苦,
心,手,嘴无法相同做决定
决定不了的事,
啊,痛苦极了!!!
就差那么一点我就放弃,
不让我放弃(主的安排吧)
小事也烦,大事也烦,
难怪整年都很少有快乐,
每天开开兴兴,
是件大学问,
愤怒是少不了的.喜乐的心乃是良药,忧伤的灵使骨枯干(箴言十七章二十二节)

One day trip's site visit at miri division

2008-10-25T12:34:00.018+08:00

Yeah, is time for me to go site visit with my industrial training's supervisor..

This time no more speed car bz they care bout safety..:)

and i wont not feeling well..

Journey...

6.00am : start journey from my home

6.20am : having breakfast at somewhere

7am sumthing: stop at bakun to start visiting 1st site

8 or 9am sumthing: tea break at batu niah

later on til 10 or 11 am sumthing: picnic in the car

banana, rambutan and plain water 4 us to

picnic in the car but no more durian..

banana and newspaper (gve us news on the day)

rubbish, wow we eat too much, fullfil 1 plastic bag

noon arrive at 2nd site then supervise worker working..

me have a chance to become "engineer"

almost 3.30pm pass by petrol station to refill then go to another site

how a oil palm mill look like

tayar pancit..(changing)

me also hv a chance to practical to change the tayar (bolt n nat only)

a visit to factory , sumthing like bio fertilizer, organic thing

( then 3 of us get free fertilizer from mill manager, each 30kg per pack, thanx)

even my course not related to biotech thing but i gain new knowledge bout it..

This time of journey i hv gain new knowledge

Unbelieveable